I will be the first to admit I have never understood the concept of daylight savings time. Setting the clock forward or back confuses the hell out of me. The best I can do is wait until after the glorious moment when the time changes then check reliable sources like my computer and the guide on the television to see just what time it happens to be and hope that the powers that be that control such devices have got it right. I admit I went through the motions yesterday making sure the clocks were set right on my cell phone, TV, and the computer but beyond that…I completely dropped the ball.
I have been in a cold medication induced fog going through the motions since Saturday. It is little wonder that my head was farther up my a$$ than usual. I took more medication last night, applied Vicks to my chest, set the alarm clock for 7 AM sharp, and went to bed in complete trust that all was right with my world.
Morning arrived too soon. So soon that when the alarm clock started it’s annoying bleating the room was still pitch black. I looked at the clock through bleary eyes, turned it off, and rolled out of bed followed by my menagerie of dogs heading straight to the bathroom for my morning pee. Icy winds blew up my night gown as I let the dogs out and back in.
Half asleep, I packed both kid’s lunches then went and flipped on the light switch to my daughter’s room announcing it was time to get up before diving back under my own covers. I grabbed my cell phone to check email and the local news on my phone. My eyes opened a little wider when I realized it was shortly after 6. 6 AM!! What the hell? I raced out to the kitchen. It was after 7 AM there, but 6 AM in the living room. Oh holy hell, stupid me!! I raced back to my daughter’s bedroom and turned the switch off and yelled “False alarm! Go back to sleep! You have another hour!” then went and changed ALL the clocks I had missed the day before starting with my alarm clock. What really sucked about the whole thing was by then I was wide awake.
Would I ever go back in time if given a chance? That would be a definite hell yes. I would go back and change all the clocks to the proper time starting with my alarm clock so I could have avoided this whole episode. I would happily go back in time and spend some more time with my mom and dad. I would give just about anything to do that. Knowing that they would die anyways would make me sad all over again, but I still think I would love to see them. If I had the chance to be young again would I want to be? That is a difficult question for me. I appreciate being wiser from the lessons I have learned. If I could go back and undo some of the stupidity, I would. I wouldn’t have gotten married the first time. I would have waited, because the best was yet to come. I would have put money in the bank and went a different path instead of investing in building a house where the builders decided to bankrupt and take all that and more with them leaving me accountable with no house to show for the money invested. I might have even gotten my graphics design degree instead of giving it up as a lost cause.
Since I can’t go back, I will keep my eyes pointed forward. I will focus on now and let tomorrow take care of itself until next time when I give you another glimpse into the life of a trucker’s wife.
