When Sparks Fly

Written today for the NaBloPoMo prompt: “What does it feel like to fall in love?”

 
     What does it feel like to fall hopelessly and madly in love?    How does it happen and when?  When the time is right and all the planets align fate takes its course.  It is destiny.  Two people meet.  Immediately, there is a physically mutual attraction which is pure chemistry.  You look into each other’s eyes and sparks fly.  Your pulse speeds up.  You finish each other’s sentences.  You understand each other on a deeply spiritual level.  You feel happy whenever you are together and as if something is missing when you are not together.  You laugh at each other’s silly jokes and seem to connect on every single level.

      Your heart pines for that person when you are apart and rejoices when you see them or hear their voice again.  You always have something to say to each other and you realize as time passes that you never want to be without that person because without them you are nothing.  That person completes you like no other ever has.  You are at peace.  You are over the moon.  Nothing else is as important as being with that person.   It is as if all the light goes out of the world when they are not at your side and the sun, moon, stars and all lights in the world illuminate when you are together.  Even better, not only does that dear soul care deeply what happens to you they want nothing more than to have you be the last thing they see before they shut their eyes at night and the first thing that they see when they wake up in the morning.  You feel safe when you are together.

    Before long you wonder how you ever lived without that person in your life and you realize that without them, nothing else matters.    Before you even know what has hit, you fall in love and life is never quite the same again.  You feel euphoric, as if you have won a million dollars, like dancing, kicking up your heels, and laughing yourself silly.  It is when sparks fly, love ignites, anything is possible, and nothing will ever be quite the same again.  You just know!

Feelings

     The powers that be at NaBloPoMo wonder “Can you easily connect with your feelings and understand where they come from?”  Well yes, without a doubt.  I think I am pretty in tune with my feelings.  I can get in touch with my sensitive side if need be.  If I am pissed, I know it.  Usually most everyone around me knows it too.  There is usually no mystery there.  If I am sad or depressed, that is pretty obvious too.  Pretty much what you see is what you get.

      I am not one of those folks that need to pay someone to sort the feelings out for me.  If I am jealous, I know it.  If I am amused, I know that too.  Do I understand where those feelings come from?  Well sure, I usually have my reasons for all those feelings.  Do I understand why I tend to prefer my own company instead of rolling along with a group?  No, I don’t but after 45 years in this skin, I have accepted that it is just one of my many quirks.

     Whenever I feel bat shit crazy I chalk that up to those pre-menopausal hormones that according to my doctor are already starting to rage. While I don’t want to think I am old enough to have to cope with such things, my all-knowing doctor assures me I am. That is right up there with the well-meaning advice that I need to lose some weight and exercise more.  I wouldn’t think it would take a rocket science mentality to figure it out as long as you are pretty in tune with yourself.  Unfortunately I have found that wisdom comes with time and experience so you tend to have more of a clue the older you get.