Feelings

     The powers that be at NaBloPoMo wonder “Can you easily connect with your feelings and understand where they come from?”  Well yes, without a doubt.  I think I am pretty in tune with my feelings.  I can get in touch with my sensitive side if need be.  If I am pissed, I know it.  Usually most everyone around me knows it too.  There is usually no mystery there.  If I am sad or depressed, that is pretty obvious too.  Pretty much what you see is what you get.

      I am not one of those folks that need to pay someone to sort the feelings out for me.  If I am jealous, I know it.  If I am amused, I know that too.  Do I understand where those feelings come from?  Well sure, I usually have my reasons for all those feelings.  Do I understand why I tend to prefer my own company instead of rolling along with a group?  No, I don’t but after 45 years in this skin, I have accepted that it is just one of my many quirks.

     Whenever I feel bat shit crazy I chalk that up to those pre-menopausal hormones that according to my doctor are already starting to rage. While I don’t want to think I am old enough to have to cope with such things, my all-knowing doctor assures me I am. That is right up there with the well-meaning advice that I need to lose some weight and exercise more.  I wouldn’t think it would take a rocket science mentality to figure it out as long as you are pretty in tune with yourself.  Unfortunately I have found that wisdom comes with time and experience so you tend to have more of a clue the older you get.