Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Rambling Writer’s Block


       Writing is fun when it clicks and the words flow.  You know when you just sit down and start typing with no general direction in mind and it happens. For me, it is when I got the words, music, and the graphics working.   Everything falls in place effortlessly.   Generally I don’t write this way.  I usually have a theme or topic to go by.  Then I think about it and have a plan before I sit down and start typing away.  Today I have plenty of writing prompts to get me going but am just about half past give a $hit about doing them.  



     I have signed up for NaBloPoMo too many months in a row to count.  I have participated in so many in fact that I have actually figured out how to pronounce NaBloPoMo.  That has only just happened. Before that I referred to this madness as the blow me posts. On  days like today, I still do.  Writing everyday is good discipline they say.  My brain screams why!! Does it make me a better writer?  I am sure it doesn’t.   If nothing else it makes a person a little more likely to post anything for the sake of posting.  




        Let’s face it.  We have all been there.  Maybe we need a day off work, a day off school, a simple break from the same ole $hit different day mentality.  Guess what, I am there.  I have reached the point where my mind has drawn a blank.  It has mentally shut down.  Worse still, I don’t care.  I am in a slump. Certainly I couldn’t expect the words to just keep tumbling out of my brain filling the computer screen with witty prose forever.  It is the dreaded writer’s block.  The passion is gone.  Not only is the passion to write gone, but pretty much the passion for everything else went to hell in a hand basket right along with it.  Could it be depression banging on my door?  It makes me want to flip off my computer, the housework, and everything else that demands my attention and fall back into bed and bury myself within the pages of a book until sleep takes me.  That is a whole lot of birds flocking about in the air. Silly and pointless perhaps, but giving my computer the bird would make me feel better.




      I have a bad case of lazy butt syndrome and not quite sure how to combat it.  It would be so easy to crawl back into bed and sleep my life away.  Still there is work to be done.  As much as I hate house work, I could go off the deep edge and clean until I am silly.  Even if I did, my husband would still arrive on the scene and clean it AGAIN.  The only good thing about jumping on the cleaning band wagon is that maybe he wouldn’t bitch quite as loud when he arrived.  There is that.  There is nothing that pi$$es me off worse than having him arrive and start cleaning before he has even had his first glass of iced tea, especially if I have already cleaned the place myself!


          The house is silent.  Everyone is on summer break time where you stay up late and sleep just as long.  All the animals are asleep.  The kids are asleep.  I have to admit my dog’s snores are lulling me into a stupor.  I have no intention of waking any of them up.  I like the silence and the isolation.  I actually encourage it.  For once I don’t have a migraine.  Waking up with a migraine every day of the week is a sure fire fun sapper, and I have to admit I am getting sick of it.  Once you have taken the magic little pill that knocks it out of the park you are pain free but also feel sleepy and as if your brain has turned into a big ball of goo filled with nothingness.  Despite the fact you feel out of it, you celebrate that the throbbing pain in your noggin is gone, if only for a little while.  


          Amazingly enough my rambling has resulted in a blog which whether it is worth reading or not, it qualifies for my quota as far as NaBloPoMo is concerned.  I will be relieved when I get my mojo working again because just writing about nothing in particular sucks.  I have no illusions that anyone will want to read this crap that is spewing from my fingertips.  I have survived writer’s block before and am sure I will again.    It is just one of those days.  Sometimes you just have to take a break and then there are other times when you just have to ramble until next time when I give you another glimpse into the life of a trucker’s wife.

20 comments:

  1. ROTFL!!!

    I laughed all the way through this! It's so funny, and I SO RELATE!!! I had one or two of these posts myself at the start of this month (not half as clever).

    Three cheers for powering through and producing this gem!

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    1. Amy, I know you can fully appreciate what I am talking about. LOLOLOLOLOL We haven't got much farther. I believe we will both see NaBloPoMo for July through to the end!! ♥ Your comments give me courage! Thank you for stopping by to read and for your kind comments.

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  2. I think you should take August off from NaBloPoMo and just post when the spirit moves you! But can we back up to the part where your husband gets home from being on the road and starts cleaning? Who does that?! lol My guy comes off the road and looks forward to 'Russelling up the kitchen' as he calls it. Then he pretends to be crestfallen when he sees me in there cleaning up, but brightens when I tell him I'm just giving him a 'fresh canvas' on which he can work his magic. lol

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    1. JoJo, you may be right. I am thinking about it although I do like having the extra writing prompts. My husband is a rare breed. He is the only man I know that thinks it is necessary to clean under the appliances every single time he comes home. He always is mad because I don't move the refrigerator, stove, washer, and dryer out. UGH. LOL Russelling up the kitchen, now that is funny!! Thank you for stopping by to read and for your refreshing comments. I will have to think about taking more breaks in August. LOL ♥

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  3. You are something else, Kathy, writing as you do every day. Even this one kept me reading every word right up to the end. It was funny and was well worth the read.

    Think I would agree with JoJo that you should consider dropping something for a while and possibly doing something new. Sounds like you may be just a little burnt out by being constrained with NaBloPoMo. BTW, how do you pronounce it?

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    1. Betty, that is funny that you even enjoyed the rambling of my screwy head. It was very helpful actually. The way I pronounce it is Neigh Blow Poe Moe. I have no idea if that is correct but it probably comes closer than the blow me posts. LOL Thank you for stopping by to read and for your kind comments. ♥

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  4. Well-- speaking from experience--time off won't kill you, I promise!!! It might give you some time to get out and have fun and bring more material to the table in a few days, weeks or a month, whatever it takes so you don't burn out completely!! I'm not saying giving up --I'm just saying you need to cut yourself some slack and take a break when you need to. Write when you are moved to do so!! And you might want a break before the November NaBloPoMo...which seems to be a busy month there.

    Cheers!!!

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    1. Jenn, you are probably right. Taking a little break won't kill me, but if I don't do this what else could I do? That is the question. I do agree I need to lighten up and cut myself some slack. Thank you for stopping by to read and for your advice. ♥

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  5. I had a rough couple of weeks some time ago, Kathy. I'm trying real hard to get my writing mojo back. It feels good, but for a while there, I had nothing to give...It gets better! Sorry about those migraines. :/

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    1. Beachlover, the migraines have been killers and more frequent all the time. Between them and coupled with TMJ, I am almost rendered useless. I love everything you write, including your amazing recipes, and checking out your photography. Thank you for stopping by to read and for your comments. ♥

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  6. You already know that I think everyday month after month is too much for anyone to expect from themselves, but you have again put out quality with humor. You know yourself and you also know that while writing is supposed to be fun and cathartic, it can also be demanding and difficult. So...this isn't a job! You can take a day, a week or a month off and still be a writer. You can just write on the days that inspiration hits! Forever!

    Regardless, you cannot expect quality every single day of any month long writing challenge. No one will produce their best stuff daily.

    All that being said, I'll read what you write!

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    1. Jo, you are probably right. I appreciate your loyalty and guidance my dear friend. However, right now it is the closest thing to a job I got. It gives my life a form of structure and purpose that I desperately need. So until something else better comes my way I will continue on. Thank you for stopping by to read and for your heart felt advice! ♥

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  7. Oh I know what you mean about getting in to something that you find it hard to sustain. I'm not sure why we do this to ourselves. Writing stops being fun. I've decided to give prompts a break for a while. Anyway I must say your honest writing will always have readers.

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    1. Corinne, thank you~!! I am so pleased you enjoy my work. Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥

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  8. I find water stimulates my writing. Hop in the shower or go for a swim.

    http://joycelansky.blogspot.com

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    1. Joyce, now that is the best advice I have heard yet!! Thank you for stopping by to read and for your comments. ♥

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  9. Glad you were migraine free! That is great. I am finding this hot weather is sapping my strength and my desire to create for long periods of time. I like the shower idea, and for some weird reason, use my footsoaker massager thing and sit with my toes in the water and relax and feel better. Enjoy the weekend!

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    1. Winnie, the hot weather does the same for me. Thank you for stopping by to read and for your kind comments!♥

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  10. As you and all our friends know, my mojo got up and moved out long ago. I am fine with it and with posting when and if I feel like it. I know I have lost readers over the months, but I am also fine with that because I really write for myself. Now, about the husband...If my husband wanted to pull out appliances and clean, he can have at it. Otherwise, we will stick to our schedule of every 5-10 years.... I love your posts, but just like everything else, I am having trouble keeping up with all my writer friends. Some have fell by the wayside, but I make an effort to visit your blog as often as I feel like reading blogs, which has also become not often. Wait until you are in your 60's ...you will see that not as much matters as I always thought it did. Most of my life, I was a clean machine. My friends called me Susy Homemaker... A lot of women hated me because I worked full time, yet still maintained an immaculate home, cooked nutritious meals and still found time to read, sew and crafts. I guess I burned myself out. When I retired, I RETIRED... I found out that a little dust won't kill anyone... Who knew????

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    1. Darlene, I think I have been going full speed ahead day after day for too long. A person does change when you get older, and like you... I think I burned myself out. Thank you for stopping by to read and for your comments! ♥

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