As you have probably figured out by now, I fear rejection in a big way. It is probably why I avoid things like class reunions, or classmate parties where I experience real panic when invited. I am terrified to go and have no one talk to me or care that I am there. I would give anything to go, be accepted, and realize I really do have friends from that period of my life. I am the same way with family reunions too. I will panic and make myself sick knowing deep down in my soul they really don’t want me there. Unfortunately that gnawing fear keeps me away. I avoid the drama and don’t go. With the power of invisibility I could test the water and appear magically if I felt I would be welcome. Fearing I wouldn’t be keeps me from even showing up. If I could be invisible I would be at the beach everyday in the summer enjoying the sand and surf so no one could see me and I wouldn’t have to worry about disgusting someone with my physique or scaring small children.
Since I am mostly home alone with a couple of kids, I would give anything to have super strength. There have been so many times that I have thought to myself if only I could just twist this damn lid off or lift that on my own. It would help me be even more independent than I am forced to be on occasion. I like being married, but I hate being here to handle everything that goes to hell in a hand basket on my own. My husband makes everything look so easy when he finally returns home and completes my honey do list in a matter of an hour or less after arriving. If only I had the strength and know how to handle it myself he could just relax and enjoy himself when he came home.
Obviously if I was a super hero I would never be caught dead in spandex. God forbid, I can’t even face the beach for fear someone might confuse me with a beached whale! I would opt to wear jeans, a comfy shirt, and tennis shoes and blend into the wood work because I’m that kind of girl until next time when I give you another glimpse into the life of a trucker’s wife.
Interesting thing to think about - superpowers. I think I would want to be able to be invisible. Or travel super fast. So many options!
ReplyDeleteKate, there are so many amazing options!! I just don't think I could fly because heights kind of freak me out. Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥
DeleteLove the power of super strength! I would also pick flight, I think. Why not?
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Estelle, I think flying would terrify me since I am a little freaked by heights. Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥
DeleteLoved your super hero story Kathy. Thanks for sharing your fears with us and how being invisible would be fun for you. I bet being invisible would also have some draw backs, like finding out things about people that we never knew. Thanks for the great story my friend. Happy New Year :-)
ReplyDeleteLinda, I did think of that angle and you are right. I don't think I would like hearing people talking about me. Might have to mess with them and let them figure it out. Thank you for stopping by to read and for your kind comments...and Happy New Year! ♥
DeleteAwww Kathy.....your post made me feel kind of sad. I bet everyone would LOVE to see you at a reunion! I always felt like I was invisible in school too. It was like, would anyone really miss me if I wasn't here? It took 30 years and Facebook to realize that I was well thought of. And all the stuff that made me a target to those people is now thought of as 'I always admired the fact that you weren't afraid to be yourself'. Yet I took A LOT of shit for it at the time. Our perceptions of ourselves isn't always true.
ReplyDeleteJoJo, it would be so nice if that was so! Someday I am going to go. I have no babysitter so that is another reason I usually fail to show up. As far as a reunion goes, I would never go to one alone without my husband. I would want him there for moral support. Thank you for stopping by to read and for your kind comments! ♥
DeleteInteresting super power to wish for! I don't think I want to know what others are saying or doing when I am not around as it may be too surprising for me. I never forget and that is not a good thing sometimes. I haven't gone to a reunion, but that is because we never had one! I am sure people would surprise you in a positive way, and those who are negative, who needs them (we all have them...) You are delightful just as you are. You make people smile with your warmth and support. I am not the size I was in HS, but then again, I bet a lot of the class isn't either. Keep giggling Kathy!!
ReplyDeleteWinnie, I wonder if a filter could be installed where we only hear the good and knock out the bad could be included? LOL I think my classmates have had several and I have never went to one. I have been invited to the big ones and then just recently I was invited to the smaller intimate gatherings that they have more frequently among themselves. It felt weird to be asked to one after all these years. I didn't have a baby sitter and just didn't go. As it turned out my son did well at the science fair so I celebrated with my kids at Pizza Hut that night so it all worked out I guess. Still will always wonder what might have been. One day the kids will be old enough to fend for themselves and then if I don't go there will be no one to blame but myself. Thank you for stopping by to read and for your kind words!! It really means a lot Winnie! ♥
DeleteHow about the power to transport myself like on Star Trek. I feel like I spend so much time trapped in my car like a hostage.
ReplyDeleteMrs. Tuna, now that would be cool!!! Thank you for stopping by to read and for your kind comments! ♥
DeleteI avoid most social situations for the same reasons. I'm pretty sure I still wouldn't want to attend if I were invisible though! Too afraid of what I might hear! ;)
ReplyDeleteGreat post on how you'd use your superpowers!
Carrie, you have a real valid point there! LOL Still it could be really interesting. LOLOLOL Thank you for stopping by to read and for your kind comments. I am so pleased you enjoyed my post! ♥
DeleteI would have the power to fly!
ReplyDeleteHenry, even though I am a little freaked about heights it would be fun to soar like the birds and see what they see. Not only that, it would be a cheaper mode of transportation. Thank you for stopping by to read and for your kind comments! ♥
DeleteSuper powers-- I haven't thought of any of this. Maybe I'd like to have some spidey action going on--where I could fling a web and sling my way across town-- or perhaps just fly--that would be easier--perhaps just some wonder twin powers--but then I'd need a twin. Being invisible would be cool as would super strength, but then everyone would expect me to do stuff for them if I had the latter.
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Jenn, my son wanted spidey action too. LOL Thank you for stopping by to read and for your fun comments! ♥
Deletehmmm... i'm not sure what super power(s) i might want ~ it seems like there could be a down-side to all of them! like if i were invisible i'd probably find out the people really DON'T want me there! {smile}
ReplyDeletefun post, Kathy!
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My heart and 39 love songs, yeah but then you could give them a wedgie, trip them, put something disgusting in their drink, or something crazy like that and then run away! LOLOLOLOLOL See it could be fun and revenge could be sweet when you are invisible. LOLOLOLOL Thank you for stopping by to read and for your kind comments! ♥
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