I’m Sorry!!

Welcome to another day of BlogFest 2012!  Today’s host is Sylvie  at Sylvie Branch.com.  

     Why is saying “I’m sorry” so hard?  Maybe it is hard to admit you were wrong.  It is only two syllables and 5 measly letters, really not that big of word at all but still it is one word most of us struggle to say.  Often pride, arrogance, or past hurts stand in the way.  Can a person really ever not be sorry?  Is it so hard to forgive?  In some instances, I would have to say yes.

       Sometimes saying “I’m sorry” is the only way to go on, but if neither party is genuinely sorry the same hurts will continue to sabotage the relationship.  Simply flinging out an “I’m sorry” because someone told you that you must doesn’t solve anything.  It doesn’t guarantee forgiveness but at least throwing it out there proves you care enough about the relationship to say the words.  You are willing to try to do better.  You are willing to make the change.  You desperately want to get along and make things work.  You want peace, harmony, acceptance, and love.

        Everyone makes mistakes.  I have one person in my life that I would give anything to say that I am sorry to but I am too late.  People die, and that happens. In hindsight, my sorry probably would have never been good enough but I will never know now.  I chose my path and now I must live with it forever despite regrets.   Some people think saying sorry allows them to continue on with their bad behavior.  They learned absolutely nothing from the fall out. Usually those people never think they have to say they are sorry because they are always right.  I think that is why there are several people in this life that I have wiped my hands of completely.  A friend of mine once told me that when a person shows them who they are, you should believe them.  Most people won’t change.  That really stuck with me.  It made me realize that for some people and some relationships there is no hope.  You must simply find closure and move on.  For that, I am sorry but resigned.  Life is entirely too short to deal with confrontational people who get their jollies from making a person miserable.  In that case, you must be sorry and move on.  Still if they aren’t sorry, why should I be?  Unfortunately, deep down in my soul I am sorry anyways.

          It is hard to say “I’m sorry”, but if you really value the relationship and want that person in your life you must.  My Dad always believed there was good in everyone.  He took so much $hit from others.  It often made me so mad for him.  He would smile and say “Nice guys finish last.”  My mantra has always been “I don’t get paid to be nice.”  No, but I have discovered being nice leaves a better taste in your mouth, fewer regrets to be sorry for, and fewer cracks on one’s soul until next time when I give you another glimpse into the life of a trucker’s wife.