I have noticed that since I have got older I have mellowed considerably since my youth. While I still have the bad temper that I had then, now I only go bat shit crazy after being provoked repeatedly. I am like the guy in the movie “Anger Management”. I warn people not to go there, and if they choose to go there despite the warnings, well then they do it at their own risk. I have a zero tolerance level for stupidity. There are enough ways in this world to acquire knowledge so generally there is no excuse for it. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me or so the story goes. By the time I have seen red, it is too late the movie's advice and start singing "I feel pretty!"
Of course, the level of bat shit crazy and the amount of Whoop Ass that I unleash on the world depends on the level of the aggravation. As my children happily remind me, when it is really bad, the explosion that comes forth is not only instantaneous but fairly violent and scary. Needless to say no one has to wonder if I am ticked. I am as obvious as a billboard in brilliant red and neon yellow. On the upside, once I have blown my top I calm down fairly quickly and life as I know it marches on in a more peaceful, Zen-like way. I hate drama; therefore I tend to eliminate those that like to cause it. Those that cause it are not a part of my life.
As I grow older I have noticed that it
is easier to control my temper when under pressure. Even though it is a very fine line where I tend to become harassed and hyper, I
can hold it together if I need to. If
you see me starting to count it is generally not a good sign. Since crossing over into the “mental-pause”
years I have had my share of Towanda moments.
You know the ones where you go ape-shit with very little provocation and
do things that in your right mind, you would never ever do. Yes, I have been there and done that. There are those moments when remorse
inevitably creeps in and then I find my level of happiness and Zen once
again. Actually some of those moments
are rather comical in hindsight. So
there you have it NaBloPoMo, I have a temper, I am a virtual ticking time bomb
under pressure, and there have been moments when put under pressure I have felt
compelled to do just the opposite of what is asked of me…because that is the way I
roll and it is all good. It keeps life
colorful, and in the end a rousing rendition of "I feel pretty!" can't hurt.
Laughing here and so certain that you are very entertaining when provoked! Keep calm and write. Heehheheheheeh
ReplyDeleteJo, my husband seems to think so. Sometimes I think he makes me mad on purpose just to see me get all riled up! Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥
DeleteI have a wicked bad temper too but I'm just too tired to fight anymore. The only person that I direct my running, wrathful commentaries in my head is my mom. Just everything I'd love to rant at her about, but it rarely ever comes out of my mouth unless I'm provoked to the point of no return, which she does to me at least 2 times a year. The last person I unleashed a mess of whoopass on was Russell's ex girlfriend when she tried to break us up 3 years ago.
ReplyDeleteJoJo, I think that is why I have mellowed a bit. It just takes entirely too much energy to go ape shit. I would say that Russell's ex girlfriend deserved what she got!! LOL You go JoJo!! Thank you for stopping by and for your sweet comments! ♥
DeleteI have a temper too and sometimes I wonder if I need 'Anger Management' but yes, just like you I am calm down considerably quickly once the storm has passed. I relate to all that is mentioned here, Kathy!
ReplyDeletemyriadrainbowhues, I am so pleased you liked my post and that I am not alone with the "anger monkeys" on my back. Thank you for stopping by and for your lovely comments! ♥
DeleteOoh...I can so relate to this post Kathy. I often warn people too. The only glitch is that people find it amusing and decide to push their boundaries
ReplyDeleteiwrotethose.com, I hate it when people push me past the point of no return especially when I warned them and they are too dense to get it! I think that makes me even madder. Thank you so much for your sweet comments and for reading my post! ♥
DeleteLol... You do know yourself well Kathy.
ReplyDeletetulika, LOL hopefully after 45 years I would have known myself...although some people are still trying to find themselves at that age and older. Thank you so much for stopping by and for your sweet comments! ♥
DeleteIdentifying myself with what you have written ! Yes, it isn't easy to control one's temper at times, and I can very well say that I've mellowed down over the years, as realisation began to creep in, that the temper was actyallu hurting me more than those it was directed at.... soulfully, yet hilariously written :)
ReplyDeleteSreeja, I am so pleased you enjoyed it and could relate. I am often ashamed after really losing it but then sometimes I feel justified and feel things happened just as they were meant to. Thank you so much for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥
DeleteI feel pretty is a good mantra. But trust me I am not pretty when the line is crossed and the wrath spills forth. I wonder if there is a single person who ever walked the earth who didn't lose it at some time. Love love love this post.
ReplyDeleteSuzy, LOL neither am I !!!! I imagine that the only person possible that walked the earth and didn't go ballistic was probably Jesus. Thank you so much for stopping by and for your sweet comments! ♥
DeleteI can relate to this post so much, Kathy! But I am glad that I have 'mellowed' down too over the years. But yes, there are times, when the fuse go off instantaneously! :P
ReplyDeleteShilpa, I have heard that crazy psycho fuse blowing is related to mental- pause (menopause) and that it is perfectly normal! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL I am thankful to be more mellow though...really. Thank you for stopping in and for your sweet comments! ♥
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