Thursday, January 2, 2014

The Pressure to Let Go


Written for the NaBloPoMo prompt:

"What are you currently feeling pressure to do that you don't particularly enjoy?"


 
  The holidays are over and whether I want to or not I feel the pressure to let go of those warm, fuzzy feelings. The Christmas tree is a mere memory and the decorations packed away till next year.  It is as if a booming voice is announcing “It’s time to return to your daily lives citizens.”   Am I ready?  No, I decidedly am not.  Do I have a choice?  No, I do not. 


     Tomorrow my husband will go back onto the road, Monday my kids will be going back to school, and if that isn’t bad enough my son, my baby, will be attending his first sleepover tomorrow night.  It is the first time we have been apart since his birth.  My heart feels heavy and even though I want more than anything for time to stand still, I know it will move forward.  I know I must let them all go.  It is time.  Not for forever, but just for a little while.  Time marches on and life moves forward and I will be forced to store those precious memories away into the deepest part of my heart.




     I don’t enjoy letting go of any of them but I know I must.  If I don’t let my husband go, how will we pay the bills?  The money will run out in a quick hurry.  If I don't let my children go back to school, I am depriving them of an education.  If I don’t let my son cultivate his friendships by attending his first sleepover, how can I expect him ever to celebrate his independence? 





        Some would call it the precursor of empty nest syndrome.  Some would say I simply don’t like being alone.  I do like my solitude.  It is when I write.  It is when I draw and create.  It is when I crank my music as loud as it can go and feel the beat in my soul as I type, as I draw, and as I clean house.  So I will let them go, knowing they will come back.  Time waits for no one.  Life is about changes.  Nothing stays the same.  Letting go is part of life.






32 comments:

  1. Kathy, if anything letting go is probably the most important part of life, isn't it. Philosophically speaking, we are born alone and we die alone, and it's only in the journey that we end up cultivating relationships, attachments and similar things. Therefore, letting go is an integral and important part of life.

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    1. mahabore, it probably is but it is still hard. Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥

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  2. I would love to let go of all the stress that rules my life and drives me into massive panic attacks and anxiety. I can't stop worrying about finances, the huge health insurance mess I'm dealing with, etc etc etc It never ends.

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    1. JoJo, letting go of stress was a big thing for me. I felt better once I was able to do it. Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥

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  3. Knowing when to let go is half the battle. There are some things that many of us never want to let go but like you said it is part of life and necessary.

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    1. Kirsten, yes it is but then after having let go I still find myself worrying and missing my little boy. I didn't think it would be so hard! Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥

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  4. What you have written is so thought-provoking and a reality of where we are in life. Letting go or to allow others to move forward is VERY difficult. I have learned...and I mean learned...that often, during the times that life gets "complicated" it is time for self-reflection. It is a time to learn what you have done in that person's life. We are here to encourage and leave an impact on others, and this is what I am sure you have done especially with many. May you continue to cherish the wonderful world that is out there and live well!

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    1. jewell, it sure is. It is hard being a mom and letting your baby spread their wings and try new things without you. Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥

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  5. A beautifully written post. Letting go is one of the hardest things to do but ultimately it gives another wings to fly. Whenever I'm living in a dream and need to get back to reality, I tell myself .. Earth calling, earth calling! Loved your post.

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    1. Suzy, LOL I don't think I want earth to call. Not ready to return to reality. LOL Thank you for stopping by and for your sweet comments. I am so pleased you enjoyed my post. ♥

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  6. How true, Kathy. Letting go really is a valuable part of our lives. As much as we want to hold on to things, even if for a brief time, they keep moving on with time. But cheer up....we ain't going no where :) Hugs!

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    1. myriadrainbowhues, thank goodness for that!! Thank you for stopping by and for the hugs. They are very much appreciated tonight! ♥

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  7. I am off this week and holding on to my last day of vacation tomorrow after working the Christmas holiday overtime. I dread the thought of Monday and the routine I got to ignore for an entire week. My tree is up until next week as my husband said he always liked having it up until his birthday, so at least I can enjoy that for a bit longer! I am sure your son will have lots to chat about after his 1st sleepover! That will be special time for you two to share! Happy New Year!!

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    1. Winnie, I know how you feel and exactly what you mean!! Thank you for stopping by and for your sweet comments! ♥

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  8. It took me a long time to recognize the things I gained in my life when I let go a little. Let go of the control, let my son grow into his own and my marriage into the healthy place it is today. I gained a lot I never expected once I loosened the hold a little bit It wasn't easy, bu then the good things in life often don't come easy. Sending a heartfelt handful of courage your way!

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    1. Amy, life is a journey and we learn as we go. Some of the biggest lessons are the hardest. Letting go one of the hardest of all. Thank you so much for stopping by, for your comments, and your handful of courage. ♥

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  9. I've become a bit of a pro at letting go.. However, thanks to that big 'ol storm going on in the east I don't have to let Christmas go as soon as I thought I might. The tree will be up for another week as we wait for my sister's grand-daughter to arrive back home after spending the holidays with her dad. I will of course have to let go eventually but it'll be kicking and screaming!

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    1. Mimi, yes I know you have!! The year my mom died she left the Christmas decorations up till February because she wanted the beauty of Christmas to last as long as possible. She knew it would be her last Christmas and of course we didn't want to believe it. Thank you for stopping by and for your sweet comments! ♥

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  10. "Love is letting go" - That's very true. However it's always hard isn't it? But yes, as everyone aptly put it, we need to let them go inorder for us to develop further, as well as for them to experience the wider universe. Good luck Kathy. And you'll be fine :)

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    1. iwrotethose, yes, I will. I will put on my smile and handle it. Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥

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  11. I can relate to your thoughts here, Kathy! Letting go is not easy but then we must do that. When we let go, it doesn't mean that we don't care or love our loved ones. It is just that we cant cage them forever, and they need to fly too, to learn, to grow!

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    1. Shilpa, well said. You are right! Thank you for stopping by and for your sweet comments! ♥

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  12. I know the feeling, Kathy. I get that feeling when my son returns to school after vacation. These days I feel secretly creeped out, thinking there's only one more year of school...precursor to studying away from home.

    Hugs!

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    1. Vidya, I am so glad I have years until that happens!! I am not looking forward to that at all! Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥

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  13. Written with such heartfelt emotions Kathy....yes letting go is perhaps one of the most difficult yet one of the most imp thing in our lives!

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    1. Aditi, well said. Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥

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  14. kathy that was a lovely post. And perhaps one with the deepest message of life... I loved it!!

    Richa

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    1. Richa, I am so pleased you enjoyed it. Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥

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  15. Letting go is never easy, is it? But so worth it in the end - for if we don't let go, we can't make place for the better stuff to follow!

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    1. Corinne, no it isn't but we all survived the sleepover and I am happy my son is back home where he belongs. Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥

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  16. Lots of changes are happening for you. I'm looking forward to the kids going back to school on Monday (I work from home and they fight most of the day. which is incredibly distracting.) The first sleepover is a big deal. My younger son has spent the night with family, but not a friend's house yet...that's a different thing all together! Hope it goes well :)

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    1. jannatwrites, we are under blizzard warning so school has been cancelled for the time being. The sleepover went well for him. He had fun. I was miserable without him and got absolutely no sleep all night. I worried myself sick. Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comments! ♥

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