Who do you like to be with when you are feeling sad?
When I am feeling sad, I retreat within myself. I lose myself in my art, a good book, or my music. I busy myself reading and commenting on others blogs. When I really have the blues, I go back to bed and escape reality by sleeping my life away. Honestly, escaping reality is often my first choice.
If I must choose someone, then my kids would be top on my list. Their hugs are balm to my soul. They care. Because my husband is rarely home, I have learned not to rely on him for emotional support. Half the time I don’t tell him if I am feeling sad because I figure he doesn’t need to worry about it and probably doesn’t want to hear it. I would rather he worried about finding his way safely back to me than worry about whether I am on the verge of slitting my own throat. Believe me; the notion crosses my mind from time to time.
My extended family tends to avoid me like the plague…and honestly most of them I have abandoned on Facebook as well. I have no desire to surround myself with people who really don’t give a rat’s ass if I live or die. Fortunately, I have found deleting them from my life and my Face Book has given me a measure of peace that I never experienced when I openly welcomed them into my life and heart. If I have learned anything from life, it is that you can’t make someone care and being “family” doesn’t guarantee anything. I often wish I could wake up with amnesia and forget the people who have hurt me, and it is probably why I can relate to the song performed by “5 Seconds of Summer” so well. I can thank them for my trust issues, my insecurities, and ultimately my inner strength.
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