Wednesday, May 21, 2014

I Will Follow

 
        I stood on the bridge at midnight as the clocks were striking the hour.  I looked out on the water below and the twinkling lights of the city reflecting there.  It was in those moments I thought about my life.  I thought about God and asked him for guidance.  My life has spiraled out of control since you took your own life a month ago.  How could you leave me?  How could you?  Tears trailed down my cheeks as I looked out on the harbor feeling utterly lost.



           I thought about the hundreds of cups and saucers I had painstakingly washed at the diner tonight and how I had stacked them neatly in preparation for another long day tomorrow.  I felt bone tired, weary, and heart broken.  All that awaited me at home were bills and the glaring eviction notice that had been delivered today.  Things just seemed to be going from bad to worse.  I thought about the dreams that had brought me to this city.  You know the ones, the ones that kept us awake long into the night giggling and making plans.  You and I were going to take Broadway by storm.  We would see our names in lights.  We were going to be stars.  We were going to live the glamorous life together. Everyone at home believed in us…their small town stars.  What a joke that turned out to be.  I simply can’t go home a failure and face all of them again seeing pity in their eyes, and seeing the “I told you so’s” in the eyes of the cynics.





       Then it hit me like a ton of bricks.  I could shine and touch the stars.  I could be a star after all.  I could soar like you did.  Like you, I could make headlines…go out with a big bang.  With my mind made up, I began to climb.  Balancing on the edge I felt the wind in my face, could see the stars calling me.  I could hear you in my heart urging me on.  We went together like peas and carrots, and we would again.  Holding my hands out at my sides, maintaining a precarious balance, I looked up to the stars and then reached.  I would fly.  I would touch the sky just as you had.  Without another thought, I moved forward and followed you again.  For the last time, I followed you.

Written for the Light and Shade Challenge












58 comments:

  1. Ouch ouch ouch

    Beautifully written but so sad. You show the heartbreak of loss and broken dreams so well.

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  2. Oh that's so sad Kathy.. I really felt the heartache in this piece. I hope you'll write the "before" story to go with this. Excellent.

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  3. Oh, wow, Kathy, so, so sad, but amazingly written. Blessings!

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  4. That is so poignant! What an amazing take on the prompt! Lyssa M x

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  5. Sad indeed to lose something so dear

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  6. Compelling read, Kathy. Love the lines, What a joke that turned out to be. I simply can’t go home a failure and face all of them again seeing pity in their eyes, and seeing the “I told you so’s” in the eyes of the cynics. So true:)

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  7. Noooo. I knew the end would be disastrous. So very well written, Kathy. So many stellar lines.

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  8. There are a lot of good stories at Light and Shade - this ranks way up at the top. Nice.

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  9. Very powerfully written. And so tragic!

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  10. Oh my goodness... Goose bumps. Yuppers. That was crazy awesome, and so sad.

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  11. Oh, well done! So heartbreaking.

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  12. This made me soooo sad. :(

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  13. sad..
    but were you talking about a maid at hotel? hundreds of dish washing in a day..
    sorry, but I am one of those who search for non-fiction in a fiction story :)

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  14. Such a heartbreaking story and it seems very real. Great job, Kathy!

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  15. ohh what a powerful read. And I read it while the video played in background. Such a beautiful feeling.

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  16. Oh no what a tragic end. But nicely written Kathy.

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  17. What a sad story of broken dreams, and such a sad ending.

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  18. Nice story Kathy.. a bit melancholic though.. but well written.. liked it..

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  19. The heartache of being the one left behind...is sometimes worse than the loss itself!
    Well done Kathy!!!

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  20. well written kathy.. so well written that we empathize with the person committing suicide

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  21. Sad but so well written. Good job on this, Kathy.

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  22. This is so sad. I'd hoped the narrator would think of something to live for, but I guess the pull of something to die for was a little stronger.

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  23. I knew the end, I feared the end. You are such a gifted writer.

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  24. Oh sad that she had to end her life so... She followed him right there to the stars.
    Touching, Kathy.

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  25. The final twist was so powerful ... loved it.

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  26. Now I need a tissue! Nice job writing it.

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  27. found you on the A to Z road trip. Whoa. Quite an intro and ending. Good writing and indeed, sad

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  28. Powerful writing, Kathy.

    http://joycelansky.blogspot.com/2014/05/ww-wordless-wednesday-tug-of-war.html

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  29. Wow, poignant. I was moved to tears, especially at first before I noticed the "fiction" at the top. Well done. Maria @Delight Directed Living

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